muddypaws

When we have got our breath back, we will let you carry on where you left off.
Great story.
muddypaws

wongetje

Haha,I like the story.
maybe you need to do a run through after the first time. It's nice but sometimes reading it can be difficult.
anyway waiting for the next chapter.

lorriette

NEXT DAY

"You're not mad at me mum?". "Not in the way you mean it, no. I am angry with you our Di, for encouraging Billie without telling me and for the other night". :Look, i'm sorry mum, that was the first time he's been out like that, honestly, and, well, i didn't feel i could betray him by telling, it was only meant to be a bit of fun. I can see now that i was wrong, and should have done or said something". "That's right mum, last night was my first time in all her clothes and with make-up and that. I normally only wear her shoes, but sometimes borrow tights and a dress". "I thought some of my things had been moved".
"Enough of that, the thing is, where do we go from here?. It's not that i mind you playing at being a girl, and as you have done it again today, i assume you want to continue?, but there are all sorts of things to consider". "I suppose dad will stop me, and give me a hidding for being a wimp". "No he won't, and anyway, he probably won't find out. He's not comming back here to live, No, i was thinking more about school, your friends and the neighbours"."Oh, thats easy mum, i've only got one more term at school, they might not notice anything different, maybe i could be schooled at home even. I haven't any realclose friends, i don't bother much with anyone, and we hardly bother with the neighbours. I can't explain, but i've always wanted to be a girl, that's why i put up with Di tormenting me, i want to be like her, with her, do the things she does. I can get work to pay for my things, like she does, and i won't be no trouble and Di says she'd help me and that". "What, encouraging you to drink and smoke, go to pubs to meet lads is her idea of helping you?". "Aw, come on mum, it wasn't really quite like that, he looked so good, he just had to out and feel the buzz. Anyway, i looked after him,and he didn't come to any harm. Besides, lots of fifteen yearolds drink and smoke a little, and not all of them turn out bad. I've been doing it for about two years, yea, you hadn't noticed, but i behave properly, and have given you no trouble".
"No, i didn't know, and i'm quite horrified that you've been doing these things, and, i suppose the other too". "Let's not go there now, can Bobbie remain living as a girl, and if so, how are we going to go about it?". "I suppose the answer is yes, hey, calm down you two, things need sorting out. Bobbie will have to finish this term as a boy, no make-up, no nail varnish, no jewellry,hair pulled back in a pony-tail, and no girls clothes whatsoever, understand? (nods), totally male to, in, and from school. I shall have to find out what can be done for next term. Am i to take it that despite your good grades, you don't want to stay on for A levels and possibly college, I think missing that would be a shame. I think we had better make an appointment with our doctors too, there must be someone we'll have to see".
"It's not that i don't want to go to college, but i want to be a girl, a proper girl, and i don't think i would be allowed. I'm sorry mum, but i don't want to be a boy, or man. I would rather take a mundane job as a woman, than have a career as aman. I know this doesn't make much sense to you, but i've felt this way for years, but couldn't try to tell you. Last night i put on a show of reluctance for Di, but was so thrilled that i was getting a chance to be who i really wanted to be, see myself as i should be. Now that i've been there, there's no way back, it's not a dream anymore, it will happen, if not now, in a couple of painful years. I,m really sorry, mum, you've lost your son, but it's already happened. Don't blame Diana, O.K. we were naughty, but it's better out, and she really did look after me".
A deeply moved Julie could feel tears welling up in her eyes, to hide it, she told the girls to go prepare tea, while she went off to think things through.

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muddypaws

Hi Lorriette
You are telling a good tale here, don't stop now. I know the feeling, but that's history as they say. It does not stop me wanting more.
I love the way you tell it.
Muddypaws

lorriette

FIRST NIGHT, Next day

"you're not mad at me mum?". "Not in the way you mean it, no. I am angry with you our Di, encouraging him without telling me, and for the other night"."Look, i'm sorry mum, that was the first time he's been out like that, honestly, and, well, I didn't feel I could betray him by telling. I can see now that I should have done something". "That's right mum, last night was my first time in all her clothes and with make-up and that. I normally only wore her shoes, and sometimes have borrowed tights and a dress". "I thought some of my things had been moved".
"Enough of that, the thing is, where do we go from here?. It's not that I mind your playing at being a girl,and as you have done it again today, I assume you want to continue?, but there are all sorts of things to consider". "I suppose dad will stop me, and give me a hidding for being a whimp". "NO he won't, and anyway, he probably wouldn't find out. He's not comming back here to live. No, I was thinking more about school, your friends, and the neighbours". "Oh, that's easy mum, I've only got one more term at school, they wouldn't notice me missing, and maybe I could be schooled at home. I haven't any friends I bother with, and we don't see that much of the neighbours either. I can't explain, but i've always wanted to be a girl, that's why I put up with Di tormenting me, I want to be like her, with her. I can get work to pay for things like she does, I won't be no trouble and Di said she'd me and that". "What, encouraging you to drink and smoke is her idea of helping you?". "Aw, come on mum, it wasn't like that, he looked so good, he just had to go out and get the feel, experience the buzz. Anyway, lots of fifteen yearolds drink and smoke a bit, and not all of them are bad kids and hooligans. I've been doing it for a couple of years now, yet you've not noticed, and I have not got into trouble". "Well Di, I didn't know, and am quite horrified that you've been doing these things, that I didn't notice, and I suppose other things too?".
"Let's not go there a moment, can Bobbie remain living as a girl, and if so, how are we going to go about it?" "I suppose the answer is yes, Calm Down you two, but Bobbie will have to finish this term, as a boy, no make-up, hair pulled back into a ponytail, no nail varnish or jewellry, no girls clothes what-so-ever, understand?(nods). Then I shall have to find out what we can do for next term. I take it that despite your good grades, you don't want to stay on for A levels and then college, and that would be a shame. I'd better make us an appointment for the doctor too, there must be someone we need to see".
"It's not that I don't want to go to college, but I want to be a girl, a proper girl, and I don't think I would be allowed. I'm sorry mum, but I'd rather do an ordinary job as a woman, than have a career as a man, I don't want to be a boy, a man. I know it doesn't make much sense, but I've felt like this for years. Last night I put on a show of reluctance for Di, but deep down was so thrilled at getting to see how I wanted to be.I was scarred of being found out, but secretly overjoyed at being helped over the guilt hurdle. Now i've been there, there's no way I want to go back. I'm really sorry that you've lost your son, mum, but it has already happened. Don't blame Di, this would have happened sometime, and despite the fact we were naughty, we came to no harm, she made sure of it".
That brought tears to Julies eyes, and so to hide it, she suggested the girls come inside and prepare tea, whilst she went off to think things out, consider the future.

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muddypaws

This story is building up nicey. Keep it coming.
Says me in my new heels.
Muddypaws.