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Thighbootguy

I am working mostly with financial consulting.

Men have as you say "female componet of some sort", I guess this side of my personality is stronger.
I always as long as I can remember liked clothes, fashion. I liked drawing, painting too. Don´t know if I was any good at it but I like drawing. I like reading, I like writing too. As a kid I like drawwing, I liked doing a bit of sewing too.I liked doing things. I liked tyrying my mothers clothes. Hers heels, hers nylons.
She founds out. We had an argument, a lot of crying too. In my my teen ages year I tried to push those feelings away. Trying doing things that teen age guys do. Like riding a motor cycle, doing a bit of sports too.
My father is a great fan of cars, motor cycles and motor racing. He took me too motor racing. To be honest I can´t say I enjoyed it, can´t say I was interested in this but I wanted to give this a try and above all I didn´t let my father down.
I wasn´t any good and of course I coulden´t get this feeling out of my system, my head. I wanted to go back the way I used to be. I had to tell my parents.
It was the best thing I had done. Being open about it telling my parents, my family, my freinds. It was the best thing I have done staring with my new style, starting with my new way of fashion. Dressing as a woman from my waist down, starting putting on a make up, letting my hair grow.

I am man, proof of this is my wonderful girlfreind. I can´t say Tighbootguy the male side of me is understanding how the physical machines works, or how a car is working for that matter. In this case my mind is working the same way as my girlfreind. I am useless on this kind of things and so is she.
Oh I realy realy wich I could understand but I no good at all on this things. As a teen age guy I wanted to knew, I wiched I had this gift of understand all this, I wiched I had this thing knowing about cars, motor cycle, knowin how they works, knowing the thing other guys knew about. I could ride a motor cycle ok but I coulden´t talk about it with the other guys, the way guys do. Didn´t know anything about it.
Guess I didn´t care about this things, in my mind I didn´t cared at all about things like this. To tell you the truth I didn´t cared at all how stong an engine was or how fast it go.

To be honest with you Thighbootguy I am useless on this. To tell the truth if my car broke down I can´t fix it. I can fill it up with petrol but that is all I do except from driving it.
Don´t know if I shall laugh or cry but I am the same as my mother, my girlfreind or my female freinds. I had accept this now. I am the same as most other women, have to accept this.
I can´t fix my car if it breaks down. I can´t do it and I don´t understand how to do it.
When I was younger this was a bit hard to accept, now well I guess the female side of me is showing for everyone to see. Its ok for me asking a guy helping me or my father, helping me with my car or other physical technical things.